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As long as this method is used, Jiangcheng will eventually belong to him, because this power of discourse is a one-sided act. No matter what Yae Sakura does, it's useless; no matter what she does, he can always say it's not enough. This is the suspension bridge reaction, just hormonal influence, unless one day he himself is moved…
Oh, how is that possible?
But—it's all over.
Jiang Cheng's actions were not self-destruction, nor did he take any extreme path. He neither stood on high ground and quietly watched things unfold as he imagined, nor did he cause trouble in the worst possible way. He was simply determined and conscious to participate, and to stand tall and face the storm head-on.
This love is written all over their faces. I've never been treated like this before, not even myself. I've never been chosen out of love with such conviction.
"What am I?"
"Where did she just come from?"
"I only saw her once, I only saw her once—a single glance that killed her. Why did it turn out like this? Why did you fall in love with her? Why would you do something like this for her?! Why why why why why why why why!!
The voice was almost manic.
The eyes of the tilted head seemed to be flashing red.
The hand that pointed at Yae Sakura was no longer faintly crackling with lightning; instead, a blinding crimson lightning bolt was focused at the fingertip without any concealment.
I can't understand, ...
In short, it's absolutely impossible! I can't! I don't want to!
Unable to accept that their love has been taken away.
I can't accept the outcome that Jiang Cheng will fall in love with Yae Sakura.
I don't want to go back to that place where no one cares, no one pays attention, and even my father doesn't know where to go.
My brain is in disarray, reason is reeling, and thoughts are constantly replaying—replaying everything I feared and was unwilling to accept in the past, where I could not find a trace of darkness as far as the eye could see.
Everything about the girl was thrown into chaos.
Click——!
It seems like something inside has broken, something very important in my heart has cracked/broken.
Is this the first release by the rational Reimu?
Is it thinking?
All questions will only lead to an indifferent answer in my heart. When I am left with nowhere to stand, the only answer I can choose is indifference.
So—since love has already been taken away anyway, rather than going back to how things were, it's better to—
"I love you."
A clear male voice came from beside my ear.
At the same time, hands came to wrap around her waist.
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I'm a waste.
Raiden Mei clearly realized this—the blinding flashes of lightning disappeared.
……
Who in the world could be more useless than me?
They were so angry, so trampled on, yet a single sentence made them unable to even be ruthless.
As long as one is assured of being liked—something so humble that it seems everything is negotiable.
"Okay... I'm just a useless piece of trash, a cuckold slave. You used what I said before very well, that is, 'If you say you want to break up with me, I will agree to any request you make, and I will kneel on the ground and beg you.' Now you can use the second half of it too."
"And what I can tell you now is that it's the same now, the same yesterday, and it will be even more so tomorrow. As long as you threaten me in this way, I will kneel down and beg you, no matter when."
Yes.
She—Raiden Mei—was such a humble person.
He is someone who is born to be trampled on, to have his share of love taken away, to be divided up, and to be a cuckold.
A guy who can't even clench his fist and fight back when his own things are stolen has no right to be robbed by others...
Right?
Perhaps the world is not like that on the surface.
Perhaps there is still such a thing as morality and law in the world.
But in reality, this has always been the case: those who cannot hold onto their own things pose no threat whatsoever.
Knowing this, the girl had completely given up on everything else. Her hair, which had been flashing with lightning like a thunder goddess in the heavens, and which had been flowing backwards without wind, fell down in a messy, bird's nest-like manner. Her scarlet eyes had also lost all their strength and ruthlessness, leaving only a powerless, crimson purple that even she herself despised.
His fingertips drooped limply, the last trace of burnt smell turned into gunpowder smoke, and the left hand that had been pressing down on Jiang Cheng's hands also lost its strength—it had long since lost its strength, otherwise he wouldn't have felt the touch of those hands around his waist at this moment.
Her eyelashes were in no better shape than her hair. Raiden Mei's face showed only the sorrow of a poor cat who couldn't find a foothold in the storm, whose fur was all ruffled and who could only curl up to protect her last bit of body heat.
Even Yae Sakura felt a deep sadness upon seeing it.
Even the shrine maiden's eyes drooped slightly.
It really hurt Mei.
The story of the fox spirit who harmed this era that once made her marvel at beauty and appreciate happiness.
The clash between her past existence and present destruction made the girl acutely aware of her own wickedness.
【Please don't! Things have finally started to improve. If you want to sacrifice yourself again and force Jiang Cheng to choose only Mei, no one can accept that. We've already come this far. If you give up now, it will only mean that everyone continues to live this half-hearted life.】
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……
Rin's immediate intervention was enough to suppress everything, her face and voice almost identical to her sister's. In an instant, she awakened the last scene Rin witnessed before she vanished.
Anyway, I've done my best for your sister. I hope you won't regret it. Since you're so good at running away, why don't you run into his arms?
I shouldn't be so confused anymore.
It's too late for you/yourself to regret it.
If I like someone, I like them; if I want to be by their side, I want to be by their side. I will never hide it.
And can that sense of unease really drive action?
Can?
No.
This is quite obvious.
If morality could truly set up barriers, then the girl named Yae Sakura shouldn't have taken a single step forward in the first place. The love for Jiang Cheng that is beating in her heart right now is an extremely intense product that nothing can stop... Not to mention her past admiration, even though she once acted as their witness at their wedding, now it only amplifies her inner malice and cannot prevent her from taking any further steps forward.
She lowered her head slightly and silently apologized in her heart—this was the greatest apology the girl could offer at that moment.
I will definitely make up for it in the future.
But that will happen in the future.
The days after they lived together in Jiangcheng.
Following her inner dictates, Yae Sakura chose the most despicable method—concealing her presence, giving up her position to Jiang Cheng and Mei, and waiting for the most opportune moment to strike.
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The hand that was pressed against her lumbar spine continued to climb upwards, reaching up her slender waist and the soft, almost overflowing contours of her body, which were still visible on the side despite the illness. It reached her shoulders and hands, and with a sudden burst of strength, the girl unconsciously lowered her body to meet the gaze of those cherry-colored eyes.
He said.
"Mei, don't forgive me."
but……
—What's the point of saying all this now?
There's a saying: "If you can forgive everything, then you deserve everything you've been through."
Ahhh...
I can't stand it anymore.
Mei couldn't take it anymore. [箘] [令saner淋,柒4把]
It wasn't just because of the affair—more importantly, Jiang Cheng was still quoting famous sayings at this very moment, sayings that belonged to others but not to him.
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……
"I deserve it, okay!"
Why won't you even give me a chance to escape?
"Why do we have to be so direct and clear about everything? Don't forgive me, don't forgive me! But how can I... I'm just that kind of person!"
She no longer wanted to, nor could she maintain any gentleness or tenderness. At this moment, all she felt was direct irritability, the hysterical breakdown that would occur when someone is forced to wake up every minute when they are most tired—even her deep purple eyes were filled with glistening tears.
"I'm sorry, I was being too self-centered."
"You just need to follow your choices and preferences."
It wasn't until he saw the girl's expression that the emotionally clueless boy finally understood something—
"That's how it is... but some things don't really need to be deconstructed like that."
Because he made a mistake, he doesn't want Mei to forgive him.
Excessive forgiveness can lead to others acting recklessly.
This matter was fundamentally incorrect.
This is true for others—demanding without expecting anything in return will make them want to do it a second and a third time.
As one story goes:
A kind-hearted man gave fifty yuan to a beggar on the street every day, day after day, out of compassion. But one day he got married and had a child, so he only gave twenty yuan. As a result, the beggar immediately came to his door, saying that the man had used his money to support his wife and daughter.
Over time, the beggars, who were originally in a lower position, mistakenly believe that this is their due. They even get angry when the beggars stop giving to them.
But the problem is that at this moment, the person playing the beggar is himself. Can't he control himself from repaying the kindness? Can't he control himself from being such an ungrateful person?
Raiden Mei is no longer alone.
This is something that must be kept in mind.
“I’m sorry, but this time, I hope you can forgive my shortcomings.” Yinling Yin Ni 4 (5) 9 (4) Jiu Ba Jiang Cheng looked at her seriously, gazing intently into those beautiful eyes, looking up at her for the first time in his life.
"It sounds like I'm a womanizer and shameless, but for me—Jiang Cheng—you have always been my first and most beloved lover."
what……
I've said it out loud.
Jiang Cheng, who always uses all sorts of words to cover up his true thoughts and constantly buries himself with grand principles to prevent others from seeing him, has finally told the truth.
Indeed, compared to other things, it was love itself that added impurities, and Jiang Cheng's unconscious concealment of himself—the concealment of love was even more infuriating.
Ultimately, Jiangcheng is just that kind of person.
She's never been one to say no.
If it were really that easy to reject, then we wouldn't have given up the best option. The weight of these two things is completely incomparable... Having experienced them myself, I am the least qualified to deny them.
Raiden Mei closed her eyes, feeling the beating of her heart at this moment, everything that had happened in the past, the sincere vows she had made, all the promises... Tears silently overflowed from the corners of her eyes. Finally, as if she had made a decision, she took a deep breath, until she opened her eyes again—she smiled brightly, her clear eyes, like the sky after the rain, reflected the helpless boy.
"I...."
A weak and feeble apology was impossible to utter.
The answer that had been brewing in his mind countless times should have been poured out in one breath, fueled by impulse and lingering strength—but at this moment, the boy was completely speechless.
The girl's voluptuous body pressed against him, her black hair stirred by the heat, and a gentle fragrance lingered in his nostrils.
As their lips intertwined, her honey-sweet mouth gently possessed him.